Home is where the fire is

It was a chilly night, the kind autumn sends to make sure you remember it has arrived. Brendan showed up late to the party. He hung back a moment, unsure of himself. A small fire crackled in an iron pit on the patio; people clutched plastic cups and laughed manically at jokes that weren’t all that funny. The men wore fedoras and artfully torn jeans, the women tank tops or skirts; they all shivered or rubbed their hands vigorously, having chosen to underdress and be stylish rather than warm.

He walked up to the patio; he made it all the way to the steps before anyone realized someone new had arrived. A chorus of loud greetings assaulted him. He smiled wordlessly. He hadn’t seen most of these people since high school.

The hostess, an old friend, appeared from inside the house carrying a camera in one hand and a drink in the other. “Brendan!” she shrieked, nearly dropping both items as she raised her arms to hug him. He had never understood why some people feel the need to start and end every encounter with a hug, but he complied. “Ooooh,” she said pulling back and winking at him. “What’s that I felt in your pocket?”

He pulled out his two staves. “I spin fire these days, remember?” he said. “I was told you wanted me to spin tonight.”

“Oh, will you, please?” she said, batting her eyelashes. He smiled again, a little charmed despite himself.

He had no idea why he was here. He was starting to feel like it was a mistake as he accepted an apricot beer from someone he didn’t know. This wasn’t his crowd. He’d moved out of state right after school because he’d never felt like this was home. But his cousin had talked him into the party. These people were talking politics. These people were worried about their weight. These people had children. None of them had ever seen anyone spin fire, or any of the other things he could do.

He finished his beer, stepped into the modest yard, and began arranging his things. The moment the poi were alight, he felt more at ease. Out here, he couldn’t see the faces of the other party-goers. They fell mostly silent, though occasionally they yelled at him good-naturedly. He started to spin, slowly at first, but gradually gaining speed and complexity. Just like always, a dozen camera bulbs began to flash. He was home, after all.